The last few weeks have been so trying for me as I'm in the end game of this pregnancy. I have never been one to be a Debbie downer or complain all the time but these last few weeks have been hard. The baby kicks have been so hard to the point I cry when she kicks me in my rib and I feel that sharp pain down my back. I haven't been sleeping because those kicks keep me up all night. I go to sleep at 11pm with my husband and wake up at 6am with him and in-between all those hours I probably get 3 hours of sleep. I'm not able to the things I like to do or that keep my mind of things like clean, organize, and do my job, blog. It's hard to sit or even lay down during the day. Only way baby feels comfortable is my standing up and I get it because it's getting crowded in there for both of us. I look at the calendar every day like a clock because yes I'm very excited to meet baby girl but I also am tired of being frustrated and in pain these last few weeks.
I voiced my frustration to my husband and felt so guilty saying it out loud. I don't want people to think I'm being ungrateful for this beautiful miracle God has blessed me with. But just because I'm growing a human doesn't mean I'm not human and feel physical pain. My husband always knows how to make me feel better and told me my feelings are valid. My frustration doesn't mean I love my baby girl any less. I had my 36-week appointment yesterday and also voiced how I felt to my doctor and she said: "heck I hated being pregnant!" I literally laughed out loud. She told me some people make out pregnancy to be this easy thing from start to finish and for some people it is but it's not like that for everyone. It's totally ok to feel the way I'm feeling.
Somehow since yesterday I feel so much better and wanted to share this on my platform without feeling guilty about people judging me. Heck, there might be other mama's to be out there who feel the same or mama's who went through the same thing during pregnancy. I really do feel so much better now that I have shared it out loud. If any other mamas felt or feel this way would love to hear about your pregnancy experience.
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Thanks for reading!
XO
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